For many of us in the Pacific Northwest, Mount Rainier isn’t just a national park. It’s sacred public space. We go there to play and we go there to pray. Young mountaineers test their mettle on the Emmons Glacier. Elderly women stand and lay their hands on Rainier’s old-growth cedars near Kautz Creek. Young couples hike into the backcountry at Indian Bar. Mothers take daughters snow camping at Reflection Lakes.
Memory is Rainier’s most powerful attribute. We live in a place where family history is often thin on the ground. Here in the West there aren’t many ancestral estates. Our family migration stories aren’t traced to the Mayflower, they’re traced to last week. Amid all that transience the mountain offers a place to connect with permanence, to create the personal back stories that bind us to the land. Every day hike at Sunrise, every car-camping weekend at Ohanapecosh, every Paradise snowball fight forms a tendon that ties us to our chosen home, and to each other. On a busy day in Seattle, when the clouds part and Rainier reveals itself, the mountain doesn’t just come out. It opens the memory album of the mind."
— Bruce Barcott, The Ranger Who Protected Mount Rainier
A couple of days ago I had the pleasure of attending the Plymouth Book Club in Grand Rapids, Michigan at the Plymouth United Church of Christ. I met some great people and we had a wonderful discussion of the novel Angel.
One of the questions that I was asked had to do with the epigrams that begin each of Angel’s chapters. Some people don’t like them and tend to skip them, which doesn’t bother me, and shouldn’t impact the understanding of the story much.
So why put them there?
I gave an answer to the question, but not a very good one. Rather than explaining why they were there, I talked about the process of finding them and deciding which illustrations to use. After the fact, I thought about this question a bit more and I have come up with a better answer.
This phenomenon is called Treppenwitz in German and l’esprit de l’escalier in French. Both expressions refer to finding the perfect rejoinder or answer the moment the other person has left the room. Writers are the masters of Treppenwitz. In fact, I have a theory that a large portion of literature is made up of the things writers thought of later and wished they had said at the time. They have their characters say it instead.
(One such Treppenwitz of my own, which found its way into Angel, was Paul’s response to a woman who said that gays shouldn’t advertise their sexual orientation, which Bishop Craig Bergland mentioned in an article on his blog Engaged Spirituality.)
It can be difficult as a writer to articulate why you wrote something the way you did. This is not because you don’t know why you did it. Rather it is because finding the right words and style is more a matter of feeling than intellect.
I put the epigrams there because I felt they belonged there. That’s the short answer.
The longer answer, now that I have analyzed it, is this:
The novel Angel was inspired by Mount Rainier in Seattle. The mountain provides the spiritual center of the story. It was the image that I kept going back to in order to find the right feel for the events of the story. In the book club meeting we talked about some of the things the mountain represents in Angel.
It symbolizes the church and is tied into an internal church debate about whether or not to repair a crumbling steeple. The steeple is a man made mountain, designed to remind us of our smallness and humility in relation to divine forces.
It is also a symbol of natural forces that are of a scope that does not allow them be controlled through human will (as is the attraction the character Paul feels toward Ian).
The mountain also symbolizes the relationship of the protagonists. I consciously thought of Ian and Paul as being like the mountain, where heaven and earth meet, so Ian is earthy and Paul has his head a bit in the clouds. This shaped the characters and what makes them compatible.
The mountain symbolizes beauty and the fear that sometimes accompanies our experience of beauty. (Our experience of the mountain is one of of “beauty and terror” as the author Bruce Barcott wrote.) Thus as Paul discovers his attraction to Ian’s natural beauty, he is forced to face his fears. And like the dormant volcano that is Mount Rainier, the relationship has the potential to be destructive in the future.
The cycle of destruction and renewal that a volcano represents also ties into a theme of resurrection that is a subtext of the novel. It comes into the novel through Paul’s discussion of the mass with Ian, Ian’s participation in communion, and the new life direction that each finds through his relation to the other. (At the cost of the death of a previous way of existence.)
Finally, a volcano, so seemingly solid, is a reminder that everything beautiful is transitory and therefore we should remember to cherish it.
The mountain informed the story for me from the beginning and infuses every aspect of the story. It is the breath of the story. So I wanted it to remain a poetic presence. In the body of the narrative itself, however, I did not want to constantly refer to the mountain. Ian and Paul’s story is their story, not a metaphor.
The epigrams at the beginning of the chapter, however, ask the reader to back up for a moment and view the intimate and personal events of the story in light of universal truths, the types of truths that are difficult to articulate, but which can be discovered and felt by contemplating nature. It asks the reader to connect the specific to something that is, like Mount Rainier, larger than the story and its characters.
This is what I would have said at the book club if I’d been able to go off in a corner and write my reply. That might be a good way to interview authors in general, really.
Angel is the story of a unique love triangle. A minister named Paul Tobit is torn between two great loves, a surprising love for a young man and his love of the church. When Paul encounters a being he initially confuses for an angel, and soon discovers is actually a young man, he becomes enamored by the mystical experience, and the young man himself. The relationship the two develop causes Paul to question everything he has taken for granted about his identity. It is about Paul’s journey to find authentic love, faith and meaning in his life…
There are two central characters, Paul, the minister and Ian the mysterious young man. The initial inspiration for the novel was Mount Rainier. I quite consciously conceived of Paul and Ian’s relationship as being like the mountain, the place where heaven and earth meet. Ian is the earth and Paul is the one with his head in the clouds.
The story is told from Paul’s point of view, so we only know Ian in terms of what he does and says and how Paul perceives him. Paul is a reflective introvert. He likes things to be settled and structured. He is not someone who has ever had any reason to seek controversy. He is a little bit bookish and intellectual. He can get too wrapped up in intellectual and philosophical ideas and become a little oblivious to the real world around him. He longs for the transcendent. So he wants any relationship he has to have a deep spiritual element.
Ian, on the other hand, is earthy. He enjoys his body and sensations, he likes food and sexuality. Where Paul is a bit cut off from the physical world, Ian has lacked the spiritual dimension of life because he had a bad experience growing up as a gay man in a very conservative church and family. So the pair are complementary. They fill each others gaps, as that great philosopher Rocky said.
Metaphorically, I saw their relationship as Mount Rainier. Rainier is a dormant volcano, beautiful and seemingly solid, but with an energy inside that will cause it to erupt at some point in the not too distant future."